It has only been a week, and I can officially say that I've had every emotion possible associated with this decision. Should I really be doing this? Can I handle the routine of entertaining toddlers all day? Will I miss my career?
Maybe I should back up...I just turned 30 this year. I taught high school science for the past five years, have been married for four years, and we have two boys -- Leo (2.5) and Xander (1). Oh, and did I mention that we have a third boy due in September?
If you're thinking to yourself, this girl is nuts, trust me-- I am in complete agreement with you. Life is a circus. It has truly been a whirlwind since my husband, Todd, proposed to me. But here we are. And I wouldn't change a thing.
Are there moments throughout each day where I think back to when life was less hectic? When the only person that I was responsible for was myself? When a shower everyday wasn't considered a luxury? Absolutely. Really, what mom doesn't? But I'm starting to learn more and more everyday from these little guys that it truly is the little things in life that we need to appreciate. That there was a time that something as simple as a ladybug sparked fascination. That taking a step back to admire what incredible miracles we've created is important. And, that all while this crazy life is happening, that you need to take time to admire yourself and all that you do, too.
I'm new to this full-time mom thing, but I'm learning to take the good with the bad, and to really just try to enjoy the ride.